A PERSONAL JOURNEY (2003 / re-released in 2005)

Originally released in Australia / New Zealand in 2003 by Metal Warriors, distributed by Modern Invasion. Re-Released in 2005 by Modern Invasion as a ‘Special Edition’ which had a new mix and an added bonus track.

The was the original LORD release that was a solo side project for Lord Tim when he was still Dungeon’s frontman. It contained songs which had been written over the years that were too personal or inappropriate to contribute to Dungeon. This is the final ‘solo’ LORD album as the project became a full band situation after the demise of Dungeon in 2005.

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Song list:

  1. The Dreaming
  2. Footsteps In The Sand
  3. Reflections
  4. Freedom
  5. By George!
  6. The Richest Man
  7. Journey Through Hell
  8. The Traveller
  9. One World
  10. Behind The Mask
  11. Rainy Nights
  12. Last Rites
  13. The Duel (2005 Bonus Track)

Produced by Lord Tim

Musicians that appeared on this album:

  • Lord Tim – Lead & Backing Vocals, Guitars, Bass, Keyboards, Drum Programming
  • Justin Lesley – additional Bass
  • Stuart Marshall – additional Backing Vocals
  • Gustav Hoffmann – Harpsichord on The Traveller and additional Backing Vocals

Lyrics and Liner Notes

(All liner notes by LT. Lyrics reprinted by kind permission.)

The Dreaming

Music: T. Grose

(Instrumental)

This song was the original idea I had for the intro to Dungeon’s ‘A Rise To Power’ album (long before the title track was written, though) that just seemed a little too off-beat to use for Dungeon, especially considering the previous album was fairly straight-ahead power metal. If you listen closely, you’ll hear that underneath everything else is a didgeridoo – very Australian! :)


Footsteps In The Sand

Words / Music: T. Grose

Tonight my spirit dances like an angel in the flames
While my body lay alone
I can fly outside of time
Where we all exist, all free to roam…
Seeing tomorrow today
Every step of the way
(Is this) just a role that we play?

CHORUS:
Like footsteps in the sand
It sometimes seems we’re following
A destiny that’s planned
Predetermined lives…

I see the choice is mine
A million ways, a million dreams
A twisted path through time
The story still untold, the future now unfolds…

Like Deja Vu and future dreams we have in stranger days
Icy fingers rake down your spine
The answer lies beyond our reach
Lies within subconscious minds

Thousands of ways yet to go
So much more left to grow
Leave this path that we know…

REPEAT CHORUS

SOLO: LT

Seeing tomorrow today
Every step of the way
(Is this) just a role that we play?

Thousands of ways yet to go
So much more left to grow
Leave this path that we know…

REPEAT CHORUS

It’s been said that subconciously we can travel outside of our linear existence to any point in the past, present or future. That would explain a lot about how precognition and Deja Vu works as well as past life experiences, etc. Here’s the interesting point – if we can travel to any point in time, including the future, how can that be if in our linear existence here we haven’t been to the future yet? That can only mean 2 things – our destiny is completly planned out and we’re just following ‘footsteps in the sand’ or that there’s an infinite number of paths we can travel down and our spirit has just happened to travel along that particular one we’re going along when we get Deja Vu. Intriguing stuff, no? :)


Reflections

Music: T. Grose

(Instrumental)

This was one of the original solo album instrumental songs I had recorded on my 8-track recorder. Eventually, this ended up as a bonus track on Dungeon’s ‘Demolition’ album at the request of our record label at the time. I was dead against this since the song was really unfinished (as was the rest of the album, but that’s explained better on the Dungeon site). Well, it’s finished now! :) Anyone who has one of those ultra-rare copies of ‘Demolition’ will hear that the solos are still the same, however – I had to keep those!


Freedom

Words / Music: T. Grose

Betrayer, you’ve had your last chance
So enjoy your tainted prize
On a night such as this
When the moonlight’s kiss means goodbye
The tables have turned and the rules don’t apply
And you will know sacrifice
Now we’ve come to the time
When the lion becomes the lamb

No more control, no judgment toll
My life is my own
No more “can’t see”, no more “can’t be”
Now I’m free…

We know these are magical times
Creation that begs for release
Now I wander the world
And I walk through the fire alone

The choices are mine, my voice is my own
The secret revealed – mine to know:
Belief in yourself is the key
It keeps your heart strong

CHORUS:
Call it ego, I call it self-respect
I believe I deserve much more than this
That place that we know deep inside our hearts
Follow your dreams and forever you’ll be free…

SOLO: LT

REPEAT CHORUS x2

This song is about 2 things. Firstly, it was written a few years ago, just after Dungeon’s ‘Resurrection’ album was recorded and the band was going through a fairly rough patch with member changes, and changes to the overall dynamic of how the band worked. I had actually quit Dungeon to concentrate on a solo career since it was becoming so uncomfortable to continue to be part of it. Needless to say I rejoined not long after and the band has been going from strength to strength since then! This is partly a record of my feelings at the time, but the other thing the song is about is self-belief. Unless you’re prepared to follow your dreams and believe in yourself, you’ll always be compromising something – usually your own integrity. You’re not an egomaniac if you have faith in your abilities and your judgment, so you shouldn’t be scared to stand up for yourself.


By George!

Music: T. Grose

(Instrumental)

One of the first guitar players to really make me sit up and take notice was George Lynch (ex-Dokken / Lynch Mob). His playing was just so angular, melodic yet dissonant with heaps of cool vibrato and harmonics! You’ll hear a lot of Lynch-isms in my playing anyway but on this song, I tried to really capture the essence of his playing to fully explore how much of an influence he was to me. As it turns out, forcing myself to play ONLY in that style made me realise just how much I’m influenced by other guitarists as well, since a lot of my ‘standard’ licks weren’t really in the Lynch style after all, so it was an interesting excercise if nothing else! This is another of the original solo album songs from the 8-track demos and still one of my fav’s to this day.


The Richest Man

Words / Music: T. Grose

Old eyes stare beyond these lonely walls
Out toward the sea
In a darkened room, he sits and thinks of
All that might have been Sure – there’s regrets
But he wouldn’t change a thing

CHORUS:
He had it all and lost it all
But the memories remain
To you and me he may not seem a wealthy man (but)
If this is what we’re really worth
He’d be the richest man on earth…

A young man so long ago, so full of hope
Of what he may become
Never scared to take a risk, a life so full
Would someday come undone…

So, roll the dice
‘Cos the future isn’t clear…

REPEAT CHORUS

SOLO: LT

REPEAT CHORUS

What are we if not the sum of our memories and experiences? Who is the richer man – the one with heaps of money and no life experiences or the homeless bum who did it all?


Journey Through Hell

Music: T. Grose

(Instrumental)

This was one of the first songs I did for the original solo album demos back in 1994. Quite a long song and goes through a heap of different moods ranging from aggressive, to dark to brooding and anywhere in between. I wanted to create different sections that would give the feel of a journey to / through somewhere evil – you’ll hear screaming guitars portraying the sound of souls dying in the flames in some sections while in other sections it’s out and out speed and aggression in the soloing.


The Traveller

Words: T. Grose Music: T. Grose / G. Hoffmann

He lived long ago in innocent times
When all seemed clear and right
A singer of songs, a teller of tales
The bringer of light But he was shunned
Betrayed by the ones he once called his own
As once they did he
They promised him love, they offered their gold
Then turned him away…

CHORUS:
In the cold – They turned him away
Far from home – He’s travelling far from home…

He left for a land to follow his dreams
Far from his home
A stranger he was but they still took him in
Like one of their own kind

Where once was seen as a curse
His difference was praised, a gift loved by all
Small minds in his own homeland
Hypocrisy burns
Forever he’s turning his back on them…

REPEAT CHORUS

And the story goes on, it’s not just a tale
It’s happening now
So open your eyes and open your hearts
And embrace what is yours…

REPEAT CHORUS x2

This imaginary fantasy story set in medievil times is really a reflection of what’s happening in the Australian music industry today. The sad fact is that if you’re doing a style of music that isn’t being forced down our throats by the multi-national record labels and corporate radio stations (so therefore not deemed ‘popular’), getting support from anywhere in the mainstream music industry is quite the task if not an impossible one. Australian bands wanting to really make a difference have to head overseas to a larger, more open minded market place. Like the song says, ‘open your eyes and open your hearts and embrace what is yours’ – if the mainstream media and government in Australia did that, could you imagine how strong the music scene would be?


One World

Words / Music: T. Grose

Our world is crying
Our children die in our arms
A life of hunger and disease
So are we trying?
A million miles away
Another day and no one cares…

If we see beyond illusion
We’ll see we only have one world…

Our world is dying
And we watch with jaded eyes
This silent cancer, apathy

Turn your back, denial
’til the day we pay with our lives
Wake up – it’s real, not some crazy dream…

If we see beyond illusion
We’ll see we only have one…

CHORUS:
One world, one life, one chance
To make things right
One heart, one mind – stop and think
Don’t leave this world behind…

SOLO: LT

So rise above your scandalous lives
Rise above your greed
If we open our eyes to look beyond ourselves
One day we’ll see….
We’ll see there’s just one world…

CHORUS:
One world, one life, one chance
To make things right
One heart, one mind, so be strong
Don’t ever stop the fight

One world, one life, one chance
To make things right
One day we’ll see – we’ll stop and think
We won’t leave this world behind…

There’s a whole world out there beyond our tiny lives, believe it or not! We all get so caught up in our own dramas and day-to-day lives that it’s easy to forget we’re all just part of a much bigger picture, one that we should take a bit of notice of every now and then. The world: Ignore it and it’ll go away. Think about it…


Behind The Mask

Words / Music: T. Grose

Now night time is falling and I sit here alone
With the sound of the waves and the setting sun
Walking the long mile from the sand to the sea
A personal journey of childhood dreams A lonely road
So much more left to see
Hoping one day that this road leads to me…

I walk alone on the beach in the night
Feel the wind that whispers memories
Sometimes it feels like you’re not in control
Of your life, but you live each day like nothing’s wrong…

So what can you do
When your dreams all come true
The future’s bright, but you’re dying inside…

CHORUS:
Behind the mask is where you’ll find the real me
It’s true for every one of us
Behind the mask you’ll find me crying in the night
Shut out the world, I close my eyes…

Living the lie – it’s so easy to do
Only to find one day a truth I always knew
Breaking away from uncertainty’s sweet embrace
I wipe the sand now from my eyes…

In a blinking eye
Ten years pass us by
And all we’re left is wasted time…

REPEAT CHORUS

Facing my demons here alone
Down on my knees I shed my skin…

SOLO: LT

REPEAT CHORUS

We all wear masks. Whether it be when someone asks you ‘how are you today’ and you say ‘good’ even though you’ve had a totally crap day or it’s hiding something more serious. Everyone has their demons, their own cross to bear, their own pain. This song is about that and about self-discovery and self-understanding. It’s a very personal song for me, and I thought long and hard about including it on the album, letting people see behind MY mask, but it was just too good a song to hold onto for myself.


Rainy Nights

Music: T. Grose

(Instrumental)

The original version of this song was written waaaay back in 1988, even before Dungeon existed! It had more keyboard parts in there and the structure was a little looser. The harp and big toms are more conceptual instruments than anything, representing raindrops and thunder. The placement of this song is very important too – I wanted to have something quiet, almost hypnotic to nearly send you off to sleep before getting snapped out of it abruptly by the horrible sounds of a bad car crash – which leads perfectly into the album’s closer, ‘Last Rites’.


Last Rites

Words / Music: T. Grose

One flash – I see my life in front of me
One crash – it’s fading from my mind
A journey incomplete, I was brought back from the light
Is this a destiny of fire? How can this be?
I’m lying in front of me
Family and friends are gathered around
I scream
But no one can can hear me
Surrounded by people I know but so alone…

SOLO: LT

I’m watching from the other side
Bound to this flesh that clings to life… To life…

Can’t return – beyond the help of anyone
Can’t move on – so much is left undone
Can’t break out – set me free
So do what must be done – How can I make you see?

SOLO: LT

So many days here by my side
So many nights I sit and cry
Can you see me?
Can’t you hear me call your name?

Sometimes I’m sure that you can see
It’s like you’re staring (back at me)
But you walk away, walk away…
Oh, can’t you hear my cries?

SOLO: LT

I see the world in a different light
I hear the words of those that think they have the right
The right to make a choice that isn’t theirs to make
Playing God
They can never hope to ever understand…

SOLO: LT

Pull the plug, flick the switch
Let me leave this life of hell
Let me die in my own way – it’s my right

They say it’s wrong – they can’t see
They’d do the same if they were me
It’s time to set me free…

It’s time to go
It’s time to leave – it’s time to say goodbye
It’s time to go
It’s time to leave – and walk into the light

It’s time to go
You will know I’ll be waiting for you on the other side
It’s time to go
It’s time to leave – goodbye…..

Imagine this scenario – you wake up after an horrific car crash to find yourself standing in a hospital room looking down on your body connected to machines that are keeping you alive. No one can see you or hear you but you’re fully aware of everything going on around you. This song is about the loneliness and frustration of watching people grieve over you and then subsequently squabbling over your right to die. As long as your body remains alive, you can’t move on to wherever your spirit is supposed to go. It’s certainly a unique perspective on the euthanasia debate! Who gets to play God? What would you do in that situation?


The Duel

Music: T. Grose

(Instrumental)

This song originally appeared on Dungeon’s Demolition album as a bonus track, along with Reflections. When the Special Edition of A Personal Journey was released in 2005, this song was added at the request of a number of fans who had heard the original version and wanted it included on an album. It’s over the top and tasteless (in fact, the original name of this song was ‘The Great Guitar Wank’ :P), but a lot of fun all the same! This has the original solos from the Demolition sessions digitally added into new backing tracks, along with a killer new keyboard solo!